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Got to Go
03:34
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Got to Go
In a rush but I just don’t know why
In a rush so wave goodby
Sun in my face must be something I lack
I got to go with just the shirt on my back
I gotta go
I got to go this is kicking my ass
No destination gotta get there real fast
Can’t wait any more that’s all I know
and all that know is I got to go
So long, time to leave this town
Don’t know when why or how
I’ll be back if time will allow
But I gotta go right now
No good reason not a damn thing wrong
But sometimes I feel like I don’t belong
I’m a square peg in a deep dark hole
I’ve got to run and I got to roll
Don’t take offense it’s something in me
I gotta go and finally be free
Not set in stone but here’s my plan
Break these chains that I put on this man
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2. |
Today Doesn't Suck
04:02
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Today Doesn’t Suck
My head aches and I’m surprised, glad to see I made it home alive
Look around yeah it’s my place, stumble to my feet splash some water on my face
I look at me and I stare back, try to get myself on track
The day it starts aspirin’s the meal, clothes on the floor you know the deal
The sun is out I squint my eyes, need a cup of coffee I’m still high
A real slow start a bit of luck, got to admit today doesn’t suck
Look for change no one to thank, stagger down the street and hit the bank
The revolving door’s a mystery, why does this always taunt me?
Rub my eyes feel half blind, don’t fall down I stand in line
Teller 9 all dressed in black, I smile at her and she smiles back
The day has changed from dark to light, traffic screams clouds bright
A real slow start a bit of luck, got to admit today doesn’t suck
I could change I think I could, but at least for now I feel good
Stand up straight feeling fine, living life one day at a time
Get to work you know I’m late, stack of papers on my plate
my friend says I look like a slob, at least I have this god damn job
After work I meet the crew, the neon sign screams red and blue
On the barstool looking fine, smile out loud there’s teller Number 9
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3. |
Clean Man
04:22
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Clean Man
Played by the rules, lived inside the lines
Small steps first biding my time
Blind sided by the break of day
Turned on a dime couldn’t walk away
Count your money when you’re alone
Don’t ever show your hand
Try to smile and tell the truth
Then no one really knows if you’re a clean man
I learned one rule in life that is
Only friends and family give a shit
Put up or shut up or so they say
And make a move either night or day
How could something so right go so wrong
It was never part of the plan
Stayed in one place when I should have run
Thought I did the right thing was a clean man
Back of my mind I always knew
Without hope didn’t have a clue
Shake your fist and wonder what the hell went wrong
Deep inside I knew it all along
Put your life together like a jigsaw puzzle
Kick the table and it’s gone
Pieces scatter on the floor like rats in the light
it’s better to duck and live than fight
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4. |
It's Gone
04:19
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It’s Gone
I’m keeping the good, getting rid of the bad
It’s gone
I can decide to reshape my past
It’s gone
Sage will only work with my help
Now in control of myself
No longer a victim that’s been on the run
I’ll stand my ground my face to the sun
It’s gone
All the pain that once defined my life
It’s gone
Secure and determined to carve a new path
It’s gone
Not a hollow shell
A pawn of someone else
No longer a wound that will not heal
I’m left with a scar but without the numb feel
It’s gone
A work in progress like small steps up a hill
it’s gone
Though I’ve got to admit memories haunt me
still It’s gone
Change only works with my help
I’m in control of myself
Not an easy fix I stand upon this earth
and I look at my life with confident self worth
It’s gone
The fear is gone
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5. |
No One Wins
03:02
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No One Wins
I want to fight, but not with you
‘cause the way I fight, I don’t need two
thoughts of the past, dreams on the shelf
Let’s start a fight, me and myself
Yeah I got my doubts just like you
I’m just a man through and through
Sometime I win, and then I lose
When I start a fight I don’t need two
Rake myself over the coals, what can I say
No matter how I try my insecurities they always stay, won’t go away
Late at night I toss and turn
Talk to myself my head it burns
Ghosts whisper to me I replay my sins
That when I start the fight, that no one wins
I’ll turn a new leaf, truth that I’ve known
determined to leave myself alone
Face the new day, shed the old skin
‘cause when I start that fight no one wins
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6. |
In My Car
03:42
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In my Car
A simple life’s what I’m looking for
Grab my coat I’m out the door
Only two things that I need
I grab you and my car keys
Life’s a mess end of my wits
Let’s get out and call it quits
So I open the door you slide right in
Let’s go for a ride the good times begin
Nothing we can’t do, nothing we can’t see
In my car just you and me
A closed environment I’m in control
A rolling house of our own
Decisions that decide themselves
Let’s put the books back on the shelves
See the sights avoid the crowd
Put down the phone let’s yell out loud
A primal screen with widows down
Howl at the moon let’s blow this town
Nothing we can’t do, nothing we can’t be
In my car just you and me
A tight closed space opens up the view
Let’s escape and start a new
Adventure’s outside waiting there
let’s just leave without a care
A living room that’s on wheels
So this is how real really feels
It seems that there’s a world outside
Let’s break out go for a ride
So now’s the time bust out from within
Because the walls start closing in
Trees and fields grass and air
Let’s check it out if we dare
In my car, In my car, In my car,
just you and me
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7. |
I'm All In
04:26
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I’m all In
I don’t play cards, but if I did, I’d cross my fingers and go for it
Slyly smile as if I knew, a game of wits, me and you
Raise the bet scare the crowd, till nothing more to say out loud
call my hand the time is here, see if I hear moans or cheers
Cause’ I’m all In, I’m all in
Don’t think I can but I’ll give it a try
With all my might hold my head way up high
Burnt and bruised but I don’t think I’ll die
It’s not a sin so I’m all in
I don’t play ball, sun in my eyes, step up to the plate blinding blue sky
Crack of the bat the crowd goes wild and round the bases I would fly
Beer in the stands dirt in my cleats, screaming crowd now on their feet
Comes down to this one final base, run all my might dive at the plate
Might only last for one good round
Howl at the moon look up not down, not down
My foolish plan I may not win
But don’t count me out, cause I’m all in
Might only last for one good game
Howl at the moon like I’m insane, insane
A foolish plan I may not win
But don’t count me out, cause I’m all in
Don’t have a prayer never did, down the rocky road I slid
Living life can take a toll, but no one can say I didn’t give it my all
Struck out at bat, folded my hand but at least I tried to made a stand
The stories’ up now you see win or lose it’s just me
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8. |
Sparks Fly
04:10
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Sparks Fly
Walking 10th I feel the heat
Stumbling round dead on my feet
just a man oh can’t you see
what it is you do to me
I’m a jester but then you know
Try to hide it always shows
Open my mouth try to speak
Stand up straight I feel so weak
Sparks fly loose, they fly out of you
Can’t you see, your sparks fly straight to me
Thought I knew all there is
But I never felt like this
Time drags much too slow
All these feelings I don’t even know
No words can express
My turmoil and my stress
Out of body out of place
Head aches I’m out in space
Now or never I pace the street
Can’t stop don’t want to sleep
Pounding head what can I do
I’ve just gotta be with you
But it’s not all up to me
I’m feeling you but you can’t see
Seems that you see right through
Jump through hoops all I can do
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9. |
In the Box
04:14
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In the Box
I don’t see the reason
cause there’s no escape
Left our mark on the land
To pay the price there we stand
You just can’t prepare for this
Adulation as some expressed
Fragile planet as guiding light
Not a frozen image in lucite
Will someone please me let me out
Need help now there’s no doubt
We’re not made of stone or marble rock so
Who put us in a box?
Unmarked building right down the block
Always guarded under lock
With hopes and dreams, dreams and fears
All tied up in our small spheres
But why go to these great lengths
when we’re frozen fast within our frames
a part of all our thought and cares
all the light and all our dares
As if this life life isn’t rough
loves lost, enough’s enough
But the ultimate misguided compliment
to be locked in stone or cement
Will someone please let me out
Need help now without a doubt
Tightly held under key and lock
Who put us all in the box?
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10. |
Going Out Today
04:28
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Going Out Today
Not going out today, too many memories in my way
It’s safe and warm inside these four walls
You could say I’ve had my share
Of troubled time so I beware
Not going near my front door
Surrounded by myself
Pets and family I’ve lost to health
Plants and furniture talk to me
Why can’t they just let me be?
Not going out today, too many memories in my way
The only way that I can win is I’ve decided that I’ll stay in
Very cautious on my own, don’t call won’t pick up the phone
Not much to talk about anyway
But I got a lot to think about
My collection of my doubts
Piles of yesterdays crowd my house
Don’t think that I won’t dare that I’m without hope or without a care
Not a decision but a fact, I know that I can’t take it all back
Not going out today, too many memories in my way
Take a chance I might begin, but I’ve decided that I’ll stay in
They say small steps are the first
I may just put on my shirt and look in the mirror see what’s there
It’s a complex family tree, people who feel just like me
filled with light and hope but are so scared
But I’ll take that big first step I know that about myself
Sick and tired so here I go it’s the only way that I know
So I’m going out today with my head in the clouds feet of clay
I’m going out to find my dream and see what life really means today
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Neil Jacobson New York, New York
Neil Jacobson is a seasoned performer, composer, and music-industry survivor. During his career, he has produced emerging rap artists, composed extensively for television, and has even developed numerous animated TV series. A native New Yorker, Neil instills the passion, energy, hopes, and fears of the city into his music. His unique outlook and delivery has won him a legion of dedicated fans. ... more
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